Earlier this year I was asked by the lovely Vanessa at Scrapbooking Memories Magazine if I would write about my Cancer Journey for it's upcoming Pink October issue.
I thought about it for a while then decided that the best way to get awareness and to make women stop ignoring the signs, was to do it ... put it in writing.
Now I know that I've kept the online diary of whats been going on but . .. putting it in print is a whole different ball game.
I had no idea that writing this article would open up a whole new can of worms for me ... some good and some bad.
I started writing this as the one year anniversary of my cancer diagnosis was coming around.
At first it didn't seem to be too much of a drama ... I got thru bigger hurdles ... but then I fell to pieces..... In a big way ... I dont need to go into details but lets just say if it wasn't for Trevor, Tatum and Ebony ... I would have totally lost the plot.
It wasn't pretty.
There was a lot of ugly crying...
There was a lot of anger....
There was a lot of confusion. ..
I was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.
I stepped up and got help and I can happily say that now I'm cleared of PTSD and in a much better head space.
I have been having three monthly blood tests and check ups and so far so good ... but I'm not out of the woods just yet ...
It is certainly not easy to put it out there that I've been unwell and hard to talk about having PTSD but the reality is that it happened and it's been part of the journey.
I've changed a lot over the last twelve months and it's all for good.
I've not turned into one of those cancer survivors who now only eat vegan and meditate but I now realize who and what is really important in my life and I'm putting my energy into that.
I'm embracing this and I'm happy.
I hope that by writing this article for Scrapbooking Memories, someone has taken themselves for a check up and stopped ignoring their body.
You only get one chance to live this life .... there are no do overs .....
Its that simple.